In the Eyes of a Mere Nurse

" How's life ? as a nurse to be exact ? "

"  Hmmmmm.. I wonder why I still work as a nurse , "
" Is it tough ? "

" Yup. In various meaning "

" How so ? "

" I wish I can let you to take control of my mind and my emotion for minute and understand it for yourself . It such a hassle to explain it to other people and make them to fully understand of how I feel and how I view the life in the eyes of nurse "

" What a jerk "

Haha.

" I dont really express my opinion towards my profession because it might caused people feel offended. Especially those in the same field with me "

" You see, almost all the time, you and I have a different opinion about something. And always your opinion irritated me. It's pretty much , like , weird but when we think rationally, I admit its true "

" Then . First thing first , I'm proud of my profession "

" Well, of course you proud of your job. Who don't ? "

" When I first started my career, it's really hurting and irritating whenever people kept saying like nurses are rubbish, nurses are maid whom being paid by the people to do dirty work like clean the pee, the vomit, the poops and so on. And I was like 'what the hell with that '. And when people are praising us like we're an angels or whatever, I was like ' yes. that's how you people should treat us ' "

" And ? "

" And now, Whenever I heard people bashing or posting up a rude comment or whatever , I simply like ' I don't care of what you lot said '. I do what I supposed to do and you can said whatever you want. Simply said I can't expect people to understand my work. And it's such a waste of time to tell them on how noble the work are. Unless if they stand next to me and see what i've been seeing all this time  and exprience it and still saying that nurses are S**t , then i'll be really feel offended "

" Woah. Calm down "

" As you know, I really don't want to be a nurse. I'd rather die than do this kind of work. It's not because nurses is the lowest of job society, it's simply because I don't have interest . I strongly believe that i'll shine more in other profession like maybe teacher or lawyer "

" Yup. You were always a good speaker and it shocked me when I heard you join nursing "

Haha

" It a twist of fate done by Allah. Might as well accept it like that. Thinking back , I really on my journey to be a human "

" Haha. I remember you used to say that you want to be a human whenever you been asked about your ambition "

"Yup. So, I continue and focusing more to my career up the point of being in a relationship is hassle , I then bit by bit realising about a lot of thing. I started to emphatize other people . Try to understand people as much as I can especially the patient. Gradually , I started to view thing from the third party. Always trying to look from different perspective. Truthfully, There are a lot of things that hard to explain to others. "

" Perhaps you can summarize in words ? "

" Umm, Beautiful "

" Beautiful ? How is that possible ? "

" I might be just imagining things and being weird. I live in the world full emotion. And there are a lot of things to see , to watch , to feel and to learn. It simply make you feel thankfull for being alive. "

" Aren't that means you are fell in love with your job  ? "

" Haha. I guess so. Its upsetting yet comforting , its painfull yet relieving , its sad yet delighting "

" People say nurses is in the lowest rank of career, the most dirtier works in the entire world. They said nurses are prostitutes , are not worth to praise because they being paid for doing their works. "

"And who are they ?  Ignore those people. Like I said, I can't expect people to understand my work. Maybe they are simply being born with the heart of stone. They have my sympathy "

" Human aren't perfect "

" True "

       

Cahaya part 4 ( The First Meeting )

                Dia menyanyi kecil sambil mencuci gelas yang berlambak di sinki pantry. Jam ketika itu baru menunjukkan 7.30 pagi. Walaupun syif kerjanya bermula pada jam 8 , sudah menjadi tabiatnya bermula lebih awal dari waktu kerja sebenar. Al maklumlah , datang kerja seawal orang masuk syif jam 7 pagi.

                Staff yang lain sedang dalam sesi pertukaran syif. Dia yang hari ini bertugas sebagai ' Link Nurse ' mempunyai skop tugasan yang agak berbeza dari yang lain .

                Dia masih tekun dengan kerjanya mencuci gelas tanpa menyedari pintu pantry ditolak dari luar.

               " Exhausted . Starving  " 

               Terpusing kepala Hanasuki dari mencari tuan punya suara yang tiba - tiba. Seorang doktor muda sedang duduk di kerusi sambil menyandar lemah dengan mata yang terpejam.

             Dr. Hidzman Amir .  Pantas matanya membaca tag nama yang bersangkut d leher.

              " Dah habis kerja ? " soal Hannasuki sekadar berbasa - basi.

              " Ya. Sungguh penat rasanya. Hadn't eat since last night , " balas doktor muda tersebut masih dengan mata terpejam.

             " If you don't mind , you can finish my breakfast though , " tawar Hanasuki sambil  mengunjuk kearah container makanan yang terletak elok diatas meja.

               Dr. Hizdman lantas membuka mata dan memandang kearah Hanasuki dengan pandangan kelam. 

                " It's okay. You don't need to ," balas Dr. Hidzman cuba menolak pelawaan Hannasuki dengan sopan.

                " If you don't mind.  It's just a simple toast and boiled eggs , " ujar Hannasuki sambil tangannya ligat membuka bekas makanan di depan Dr. Hidzman.

             " Sekurang - kurangnya, kalau doktor dah makan , boleh balik rumah mandi dan terus tidur, "
Hannasuki berkata lembut bila melihat Dr Hidzman yang nampak serba- salah.

            " Saya tak letak racun dalam makanan tu doktor " kata Hannasuki lagi lantas tergelak. Dr Hidzman tersengih mendengar kata - kata Hannasuki dan kemudian mengambil sandwich dan mula makan.

             " Then, thank you"
 
              " Help yourself. Coffee ? "

Dr Hidzman memandang Hannasuki yang sedang memegang botol thermal. Sedia untuk menuang kopi ke cawan.

              " Seriously , you're my lifesaver, " seretak itu mereka tergelak.

And the rest is history.